I am both puzzled and surprised at myself-

I consider myself a strange mix- theres this
strange dicotomy(tryin 2 b chim here), duality.
I m referrin 2 hw I am sometimes, in some company,
extremely confident (on ocassion, arrogant), yet in
others meek, a shrinking violet even (ugh - yes i noe its
not exactly approp use)...

Is this normal chaps?
Im thinkg its like a by-product of learned helplessness
- perhaps in those years in VS, NS - surrounded by
bunch of ppl i was intimidated by, i survived by
being weak - U may of heard of this theory - i guess
it does show up in the animal world too: If u can't beat em,
pretend 2 b dead.
Learend helplessness can be -unlearend...
Or am i merely gratifiying a martyr complex?
js simply alittle not so confident...?
when the Aplha male appears, the omega retreats situaiton?

hermherm - i dont like this man
laterzz